Dream
November 9th, 2005 -- Posted in rants | 2 Comments »Hmm. Other than Mel-o’s note about how slow Twilight download, I don’t see any other comment on that post. Perhaps music isn’t a popular topic here. I shall keep my focus on other topics then.
Had a strange dream last night. I dreamt of three persons. One was Sunsun, one was someone who’s supposedly my friend (but I can’t recognize who she was) and the third was Sunsun’s friend (who’s a stranger and a new friend to me).
Doesn’t sound strange at all? Wait… that’s not all. The strange part about this dream is that all three characters in this dream were the same… They’re all Sunsun. While Sunsun as my wife looked like herself, the other two – my friend whose face I don’t recognize and Sunsun’s friend whom I’m a stranger to – were two other versions of her who don’t look like her. As strange as some dreams we might find when we wake up from them, I was totally aware that there were three Sunsuns, with two not looking like her, and yet not feeling strange about it.
There were mixed elements in the dream. The setting was a chalet with a small group of friends (whom the rest I don’t quite relate to). Being movie-like watching myself (in my 1st person perspective) interacting with three versions of the same person, I treated each with a different level of intimacy. While Sunsun in herself is just as physically intimate as she is in real life to me, Sunsun as my friend was a little less.
Between this friend-Sunsun and myself, there is this child-like kind of friendship… simple and innocent. On one instant in the dream, she jumped out of the shower thinking there isn’t anyone in the room and while a little shocked to find me there, she just stood there naked and asked me to help her get a towel. She was not embarrassed by her nakedness, nor was I embarrassed that I’m faced with a friend who’s naked in front of me. Do not be mistaken of any erotic element in this episode. It was pure innocent connection between us that was comfortable. It was this that tells me that this was Sunsun in personality. She felt just like a friend or a sister who made me feel like a child again. The connection between us was like that of two 5 year old kids… simply innocent.
It was the third Sunsun-persona who was a little more naughty. While this stranger-Sunsun was seemingly slimmer and mysterious, she was the kind who frightens me yet entises me at the same time. Possessing the devious side of the real Sunsun, this stranger-Sunsun kept seducing me the whole time, knowing that I’m her best-friend’s hubby. While knowing this is also Sunsun in another persona, I kept resisted each attempt of seduction. At the back of my mind, I just knew this stranger-Sunsun smells of trouble and I just wanted to avoid getting myself burnt. Yet at the same time, as human as one might be enticed to danger, I welcomed a few seconds of physical contacts but escaped before it got too hot. It was very much like putting my hand into a flame for feeling a second of masochistic pleasure in the pain.
Strange enough? Three versions of the same person in my life. Three different connections. What does this dream really mean? I’m still pondering. Perhaps someone can give me an interpretation of this all?
