My Squirms of Silence
February 2nd, 2006 -- Posted in deep | 4 Comments »Usually it is not because I do not wish to say, but just because I do not have anything to say. And the relating reason why I do not have much to say is because there is nothing in my mind important enough to be spoken of. No… again, it is not because I think there isn’t anyone important enough to hear them, but just because I do not have anything important enough to share it with anyone when EVERYONE feels too important to be missed out on what I have to say…
Relative: How was work?Me: Everything’s fine. Thanks. (I do not have much to tell you about my work, even when I have a new job role lining up for me after CNY.)
Relative: And Sunsun? How is she?
Me: She’s fine too. Thanks. (I do not know what to tell you about her. Why don’t you ask her yourself?)
Relative: So when is your turn (to have a kid)?
Me: ... (Throw me more of your questions I do not have any answer for, then perhaps I may find one with an answer…)
So what was all that? Just a reflection of the silence I notice I was carrying over this festive CNY when I was meeting many familiar faces during my visits. Now why all the fuss, you’d ask. Well, I just didn’t feel comfortable enough to talk much during this years visitings. And I’m now not very comfortable about that.
