Archive for January, 2007
January 23rd, 2007 -- Posted in people |
One sis spoke to me on her worries about the other sis yesterday. She told me about her paranoia which she cannot disregard easily. I wanted to tell her ‘everything is fine, nothing will go wrong’, but I couldn’t.
When I thought of assuring her, it was genuinely based on my personal rollercoaster ride through adolscence and that at such youth, one can get distracted easily and change of passion can happen very quickly. But I hesitated. Why? Because I’m not sure if that other sis will behaved like I did.
So are we all that different? Are there someone out there who stuck on the same passion since they were in their teens and never let go even today? Or are most just like me when change of mind and heart has happened just too many times to remember what that old teenage passion was all about.
Like my passion for the classical arts, poetry and music blew me in flames while I still had it. But having faced with a harder reality of precious time, I now find it more worthwhile spending my free time doing something else. Not really a change of heart in this case, for I still love the visual arts and the music, only in a different light and tone. Only difference is that I no longer have that flame to spark any creation of either in me. Has that flame died off?
No. Again, I would rather use the word ‘changed’.
So I do change my passion since teenage years, but will this happen the same for another person? I doubted so. So I didn’t use the ‘she’s going to change yet again, so don’t worry’ choice of consolation.
January 21st, 2007 -- Posted in deep |
... because I never do, and because I’m a buddhist.
But I’m waking up as early as 9am (not that early but earlier than workdays). Figured that I want to enjoy a morning of a nice cup of coffee and some sun (while it’s available) by the balcony.
Am I wasting time doing this? In the ‘uber-modern’ standard of Singapore lifestyle, I might be wasting precious time since I work 5 days a week, 14 hours a day. I should be doing something like getting my driving license and cleaning up the house… or something more ‘constructive’.
Not in my standard. While I’m in my early 30’s, before the kids come along, this is my idea of ‘constructive sunday morning’ when I do a bit of documenting of thoughts onto a blog.
During the days when I haven’t been catching up on blogging, I figured that there are so much thoughts in my head that I get so disorganized and hard to hear myself think clear enough without deleting a while chunk after I’m done. There are also days when I just have no thought I can put into words.
Perhaps I should just try to narrate?..
Sunsun and I went to a TCM doc yesterday for an alternative opinion. Not so traditional, but the doc is a certified physician and acupuncturist. Sunsun got some chinese medicine and an instruction to monitor her vitals to understand her hormones. I got myself a 20-minutes acupuncture session and some cordyceps-based supplement to help improve motility.
Spent the next few hours doing some shopping in Orchard Road. The vehicle and human traffic was horrendous. Thought it was because of the rain, but funny that there are more people shopping during rainy days.
After (some long boring hours of) shopping, we headed over to dad’s house to view a few paintings that Becky’s gallery friend has left for us to see. Nice paintings but our top choice seemed to be too large even for the large living room. I guess we’d need a big gallery-style house to enjoy such a masterpiece.
And that was that for a Saturday. Many things done but I don’t feel I’ve accomplished anything. Nothing unusual, actually.
Anyway, I’m looking forward for catching up with old friends and a sibbling who are back in town for the coming CNY.
January 20th, 2007 -- Posted in blog design |
So what’s keeping me from updating this blog?
Work? Yes that’s one of the reason, but the bigger headache recently is the increasing number of spam comments posted to this site. Each time I turn on the blog admin page, there’s always additional 100 over comments for me to moderate… each either selling sex or drugs (in the most legitimate way they can think of, ironically) and some even added a comment (automated, it seems) about how much info they get from this site. What a headache! The electro-perfectionist me just haaaate to leave useless bytes lying around so it’s my impulsion to want to clean these spam bugs off before I post anything.
You know how it is… Take a week of vacation away from any computer and only return to find your blog plagued by 1326 comments. I tried to scroll through just in case there is any genuine comment somewhere, but after browsing through 249 spam comments, I just couldn’t continue. I just selected “Report All Spam” button at the bottom and cleared all.
So, for those who added any comment but did not get posted, I apologize.
